Friday, October 31, 2014

A Day Where I'd Like to Paddle Out and Not Come Back - Ever.

UPDATED November 1, 2014:  The darkness has passed.  Thanks for the words of comfort from readers.

Sadly, the waves are small and the water isn't really cold enough yet, but it's a day that sucks, I'm sick of work and wondering why I bother to go on. I keep reflecting on the fact that I'm way out side the suicide clause in my life insurance policy.  I haven't felt this bad in a long time.

4 comments:

Jay M. said...

Mike!
Yeah, I get you...100%.
I have days like this monthly, if not weekly.
Life sucks, and we just have to keep plugging on.
Sorry it's awful. Call me. We can commiserate!

Peace <3
Jay

Scott said...

Sorry guy! Sending cyber hugs your way. Days like that happen. I'm not the type to go suicidal, but had days before facing self of deep sadness. I'm a still closeted and married guy who a few years ago finally gave up trying to be straight. Circumstances are not such that I can come out, but at least the war in my head has stopped.

Wish I had something better to offer, but just stay in the fight.

Scott

VaB251 said...

I only recently heard this concise expression: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
Whatever it is will pass.
Hang in there.

Trevor said...

Glad it's passed Michael. Thanks for your work and efforts.